Last night I became one

If you didn’t die would I have been your conquest ? I mean would I  still be a one night stand? I learned about your death years later after that night. apparently you graduated top of your class and you did your experiential learning at the same hospital even worked there for 3 years. During that 3 years you were looking for me, searching for me high and low. You met your death coming from my house, devastated and despondent.

Apparently you once came looking for me and I was neither here or there. You tried leaving messages for me but alas no response from me. You even came several times to my house but all these efforts yielded no results. You also saw me and tried to get my attention but I just looked at you and never responded. I turned and walked away from you. You even comforted me when my father passed on. You were there with me.

I just can’t remember how we ended in bed together that night. How did we meet? I can’t remember even your man however someone keeps on telling me about you, how looked for me after that night. The fact that I ended up in bed with you still haunts me. Actually bothers me a lot. We met that night but we ended sleeping together. However I am grateful to have met you. You were a true gentleman. Condoms were not easily available back then but you had them and you ensured we used them and properly at that. You made sure that I got home safe even if you didn’t take me there but you ensured that I arrive safe and you phoned to confirm that I got home safe. You even told me that you don’t trust the transporter however you were a beggar so we didn’t have a choice but to accept his offer to take me home. Well I was the 1st to be dropped at home as per your request and was given money to come next week again as you wanted to see me again. I wasn’t so sure about it. The money was shoved into my pockets. Never  used it though I was waiting for your call.

I can’t remember anything except that we ended up in your friend’s couch for the night. I remember the light, sitting on the stoep and a group of people sitting in a circle though. You came and occupied the next to me and the guy who was sitting moved to another chair. you ignored everybody. It was like we were in our own  world until it was time to sleep and you remembered that you don’t have a place to sleep for the night. You asked to wait for you while you spoke to your friend who already offered us his couch.

You told me your dreams. Time and again you would tell me that you were from Natal. You came here to study and you have to fulfil that promise as you come rural area and a poor home. You wanted to improve your parent’s life back home. It was exam  time the Monday we woke up together you were writing your last and very important exam and you had few more hours still left on your experiential learning. You apologised though for what was happening right and promised to make it right. You begged me to forgive you for not being there for me. You told me that you will work here for a few years and move closer to your home and if I was willing to come with you start a new life in another province with a new family. You told you were getting a car because you were tired of travelling with buses and taxis.

I heard you graduated cam laude and your parents were flown  from Natal to your graduation. Apparently your older brother threw a hell of a party. I also a shout out from your brother daring me to show my face. Apparently your family wanted to meet me now that they were here. I wonder what did you tell them about me. Did you even remember my name though cos I can’t remember yours? maybe I chose to forget it because you became one of those bad memories. I think you hurt me deeply and emotionally so hence I only remember snippets of our meeting.

Today I would like to bid you farewell. I would like to forget you, move on with my life. I would say we were not meant to be. It’s one of those but know this you taught me how to use a condom, be wary of guys like you and be strong never show emotions.

We made love or had sex all through out the night. we used all 8 condoms you had. You woke me up each time I fell asleep in your arms. You told me how much loved me even if we just met. You told me that you will be leaving early in the morning and indeed you woke me up at around 04:30 am to shower with you. We looked for cups to make coffee or tea whilst you were waiting for your transport to school and you had to go extra early to finish up whatever I never knew never bothered to ask. You had your backpack with your books. I paged through and you asked if I married you would I like to study your field of study full-time? You would pay for me. I just looked at you never responded. Your hands cupped my face in your hands kissed me passionately time and time again until you heard a tap on your shoulder. It was the transport guy. He came for us. He dropped of at the gate of the university, again you kissed me, only this time tears rolled down my face and you wiped them begging for forgiveness. I did not like the way you were letting me go. The transporter consoled me along the way that he is certain I wasn’t a one night stand for you. His words were ” you are beautiful and my boy would be a fool to let such a beautiful girl walk away from him just after 1 night.” He saw love in your eyes. He has known you for several years and he has seen you like this before though. He asked if it’s alright for him to come fetch me every time we need to meet.

Our common factor reminds of you always. How life would have turned out differently had you not passed on after that accident. How you would not stop asking about me. How you would not stop hoping to hold me in your arms yet again. So long see you whenever.






Does size really matter?

I sat with a group of couples and all of a sudden topic of SEX came up. Normally that topic we have it when we are with our friends cos at times very intimate details are shared.

Obviously we all took part, in fact we were keen to share.

Yep the size issue became the focus.

I just wanna know does size really matter or is the skill the deal breaker?

The fairer sex some said it does matter whereas the other half focused on the skill.

One often sees the pamphlet re: helping you to increase your manhood or something similar.

The issue of size becomes a heated debate between couples such that some end up splitting.

As we were discussing a story came to mind…….

This guy was so distressed with the fact that he can’t satisfied his women issue being him very small in that department. He was so stressed that he couldn’t focus on anything except that he wants to satisfy his women. He opened up to fraudsters.

All of sudden people became responsible in ensuring that he satisfied his ladies. They ensured that he parts with his hard earned cash. They came in droves to make money. Indeed he became the laughing stock of the town. They gave him all sorts of remedies…. I remember where they brought in suet with mixed charcoal. He had to rub it on his anatomy for   the next 3 days without washing, twice a day. I wondered how his undies looked like after that and the smell, must have a been a real pong hey. Then they gave him Vaseline mixed with something like an aloe and they told him to wait for a few weeks as he pulls it every time he answered he’ll see the difference. In fact he will also feel it. I wonder if he ever did get what he wanted as he relocated.

Then the ladies as well have their own issues re: size of their anatomy to an extend that they fall prey to home made vaginoplastos. Apparently if one searches very well there is a dried fruit called ” lengangajane”. They rave about it. There is also some ointment that they also get from herbalists. They say one swipe of the ointment your partner will never get enough of you. They say he will go crazy. Don’t know how true it is but one will have to do some more research.

Hope all this suffering is all but having a wonderful and memorable procreation.

What I find funny is this young boys have bigger anatomies than their fathers. Is it what these boys eat as kids that makes them like this? Is it a myth?

Condom- a deal breaker or not

As one grows up we involve ourselves in a monotonous relationship hoping and praying the other partner is faithful or at least is using a condom wherever he is.

When is it the right time to whip out a condom? I don’t know about you but have you ever noticed that sometimes we become attracted to other people even though we are happy in our current relationships. And it’s not because one is a loose woman but opposite attracts right?

And who must carry the condoms? Who is responsible to actually to carry them? It seems if one always carries condoms you are forever expecting to be laid. I wonder how it works out there but one has to carry it for once safety and health well being. Yep you meet people where you find that sexual tension is high however it does not mean you will lay with them in the hay.

We have a new term for escorts-MAVUSO. Yep the escorts they are now called mavuso. I just want to know how it works cos in the mavuso case there is responsible pimp as such. It’s an arrangement between two consenting adults who are not however involved any way but for the day or night will pretend to be a item and later hook up. In this case does one negotiate condoms usage or is the prices set as per need demands?

Then there is Mazola or five 2. It’s a quickie nicely put. Here two strangers can meet and hook up in the car, loo, anywhere for that matter just to relieve. Here I don’t think condom is out of question ne? They do their thing and come back and sit down among  fellow human beings. They continue whatever they were busy doing or what they came for. Again can one negotiate condom? Is there a form of payment?

Then comes the village bicycle everybody whether experienced or not they ride. Ride on brother. Again my question arises- condom is it negotiated? Yes I do understand that here the village bicycle does have a choice but I don’t think it is always like.

In all of this circumstances there is consequences that can affect one for their entire life time. There is danger out there. Be it infections or god’s gift-children. How are you going to know who is the father of your off-spring? Don’t you think its much better to abstain, yeah I understand the need to curb poverty but if one is going to be marginalized then that’s another issue.

In some countries one can trade as a prostitute so long as they are not a group however he or she flies solo but there is danger attached to that. You might hook up with a psycho or a carrier of whatever diseases out there and expose yourself to it.

Fine here’s somebody who have been lusting after for a while now and the opportunity presents itself to you do you think about condom or the moment’s pleasure? Lets say its in an office situation are going to walk that office with somebody’s fluids dripping? Fine wipes are there but shoo what about the 3rd party involved? What if they are sick?

The 3 little words (SEX) can be deadly for real. Sure you will enjoy but you don’t know what future it might present- herpes which might even sterilize or baby or even ebola virus. No matter how phallus the situation can be one still needs to be extra careful. Vultures are forever circling around us waiting for that fatal moment in our life.

What I believe is what does not kill you makes you strong but it does not mean that we need to test it for real.  Hahaha.

Can I ever say I’ll abstain until I meet my soul-mate, nay I think I have passed my sell-by date. The use of a condom came with its own advantages and disadvantages hey. Some became very promiscuous because they were using condoms, for others it became way of life-survival and salvation. Nothing is quite upsetting for a grown woman to pop out babies without fathers. How are going to support those kids morally.